california here i come ~!~

escape through train
winding on the tracks
high above towns
and villages

over wide expanses of water
dropping me off in an unfamiliar area
in california

skyscrapers engulfing me
wandering to and fro
searching for my friend
who recently escaped to this paradise

and i was free to join
to escape with him
and start this new life

on that distant island
isolated by oceans
hidden by concrete

i start my new life
a new home
new friends

and some old ones return
to join me
one is by herself
the other has one with him

one that will leave me alone
but i move on
and discover something new

trapped ~!~

always vigilant

watching

every movement i make

judging

examining

all aspects of life

in charge of

no person freely allowed to enter

to communicate with

tears followed by more

looking for an escape

anything

leave this area

enter the new

only for them to follow

to constrict

forbid

freedom is nowhere

i will never experience it again

and my captors

my own blood

they cannot allow me to live my own life

those i remember

i'll begin documenting my dreams
those i can remember from the previous night

no matter how silly
how frivolous
how fucking bizarre they are